The Life

What can I say? Life is very complicated at the moment. It is true it is a rollercoaster. At times don't you feel like you want something so bad but then you feel as if something is holding you back? That is my situation. I can't point my finger to exactly what I really want. People find it hard to become happy. Will I ever be happy? Or just find a reason to not be happy? I hate overthinking everything but people can't change the way they feel. Every happy little thing I tend to push away. Isn't that something?